|Baby in her party gear|
|The attractive parents….not|
|Vegan turkish delight and strawberry cake, nice.|
But is she? Developmentally, yes of course...yet she still retains so much of her essence. Curious, vulnerable, exuberant, loud, open, funny, fun-loving, watchful, observant, thinking, particular, loving, impatient, questioning, creative. These labels don't really capture her. Can you ever capture a person in words? Perhaps just your own fleeting interpretation of them, if you are good enough to accurately express this, that's all. She is so much more than I have the language for. And there is so much of her that is unknown, unknowable. As it should be.
It took her to be born for me to truly understand the words "force of nature". For she is one, a blast of energy which has shot through our lives, changing it and the world forever.
It is a joy to watch her unfurl. To find her people, to gain more confidence to go out into the world.
There are times when she drives us crazy, of course. Our adult, traditionally brought-up selves can sometimes hardly bear the sheer untramelled humanness of this small child. We put negative labels on her (usually silently thankfully) - rude, selfish. We attach intentions to her- interrupting, ignoring, not listening, dawdling. I catch myself thinking she is ungrateful at times, Yet she has not asked to be given things. And is actually surprisingly grateful mostly. This is for another post…I have many thoughts on all that modern kids are given.
All the while she is just being herself. Perfectly imperfect. Like us all if we could just accept.
Enough of the musings now. She is a most wonderful daughter and being and we celebrated her birthday in style.
Pink coconut cake (pink ALLLLLLL the way through, baby!) for bringing into school, balloons, a toy owl to keep her other toy owl company, a pink bike basket (the last two requested), a book about a girl engineer (Mam chosen of course), lego, more books and much more from family and friends. Then a family trip to a hydrotherapy pool. Disco lights! Water jets! Bubbles! Currents!
Pizza and ice-cream on the seafront? Of course!
Then at the weekend a wonderful party in a local museum with lots of fairy and Medusa based activities, to tie in with current interests, with all the school friends, and some from before. It would have been brilliant to invite everyone, but not possible, or desireable I guess. It was both a relief and a joy to see her run free and spend the entire party playing with her friends and to be so excited to celebrate with her people. No clinging to us at all. Not that I mind helping her feel safe.
And there we are. Just like that. And not just like that.